Sickness

For some reason, winter quarter is deadly to me. 

I remember freshmen year I stayed in the dorms for ONE weekend, with the exception of finals week, and no one knew I stayed, because I was SO SICK. I couldn't even get out of my room. I think I had three midterms and a paper due that week as well. 

Second year, I started getting stressed out a lot and got acid reflux on my stomach, which basically means that my stomach produces extra acid in times of stress. I went ot the ER for the first time in my life and waited for four hours. One of the funniest things with acid reflux is that I feel like I'm going to die for 2 hours, but the pain goes away completely afterwards. Basically, my 4 dear friends who came to the ER with me saw me crying in pain then completely fine. After I was treated by a cute Indian doctor, we went to Bruin Cafe and pigged out. 

During third year winter quarter, I was going through internship recruiting for the first time and I was emotionally traumatized. I hated myself, hated my life, hated everyone around me, etc. I developed a new sense of bitterness towards this world and wanted to quit everything... until I got an offer. Then life became good again - so good that I stopped studying spring quarter and received the lowest GPA of my entire life as a student.... 

So here goes my last year in college and my last winter quarter. I thought things were going well. But I was wrong. My body just reacts to the cold weather and my nose is starting to become runny. Not to mention the frequent questioning of why I exist in this world. I think I'm becoming more philosophical and religious, to a certain extent. What's happening to me?

Oh, winter quarter. It's already week 7?! I feel like starting college all over again. Just kidding about that. I want to start this quarter all over again. Just kidding about that, too. Live with no regrets! Yay!